I dont noe if being independant is good for a women. Would it boots thier ego or would it make them a better person?

Iam happy that my hard times are manageable this time. Or isit there are more to come. I dont noe whats up with me the past months. Ive been going out all alone all time. Stress reliever i guess. But iam still ok thou the person i hope to be by myside isnt there.
I found self satisfaction when iam alone. but what worries me is.........................................................................................................

Prawn Cocktail

Note : More on starter. Best serve in Wine glass, spectacular in martini glass or if u have to serve small, get a shot glass.

Exclusive tip from Chef Ozzy :> CHEERS!

Recipe ...

Ingredients:
2 cups peeled, cooked prawns or shrimp -serve as a guideline fo 2-4 servings only ya

4 tbsp mayonnaise
1 tbsp creamed horseradish sauce - for halal concious, dont worry, dont have to find halal cert, its just a normal sauce that u can try grab frm mustafa center or some market like cold storage or liberty market.
1 tbsp tomato ketchup
2 cups shredded Romaine or iceberg lettuce - u can also use a little purple cabbage, it add a lillter vibrant color to ur cocktail dish
1 lemon, quartered - do not throw the skin away, it can be use as a lemon zest or wat ever u spell it. it will add to the citrus smell. trust me u love it.
4 large, cooked prawns, shelled with tail on - a little tip, to maintain taste and size, cook the brain with the brain juice cos thats where we get the sweetness. Second, do not peel the shell, cos if u do, it will shrink little in size, so peel after cooking ya.

1/2 a can Cocktail - wats cocktail prawn without cocktail rite

Preparation:

Serves 2-4

Place the prawns, mayonnaise, creamed horseradish and tomato ketchup also the few squeeze into a mixing bowl. - for lemon juice, trust ur taste, u have to taste when cooking dear

Stir to combine all the ingredients; make sure all the prawns or shrimp are coated in sauce .

Divide the shredded lettuce between 4 large glasses.

Drain the cocktail can and just leave a little syrup behind for the sweetness. put the cocktail nicely on the lettuce then top with the prawns and sauce.

Decorate with a wedge of lime and a large prawn on the edge of the glass and serve with small slices of buttered brown bread

Use the lemon skin and twist it so the zest will zest things up. hehehe

Courtesy of uncertifeid Chef Ozzy

It was suppose to be prepared for sum fren, however i guess his not there. Well here you go, the best time for me to cook is when iam stress. Well i taught he be there this time suring my peak of my work, well again his gone, so again i have to go thru this again .

Anyway Cheers to you dedicated one

Duka derita duka laraku di dunia Tidaklah aku sesali juga tak akan aku tangisi.
Sesakit apapun yang kurasakan dalam hidupku, Semoga tak membuat ku kehilangan jernih jiwaku,
Andaikan dunia mengusir aku dari buminya Tak akan aku merintih juga tak akan aku mengemis
Ketidakadilan yang di timpahkan oleh manusia,Bukanlah alasan bagiku untuk aku membalasnya

I heard so much about fall marriage and iam officially afraid of marriage at such a young age. I dream about my ''marriage life'' yesterday. Its not a happy one.



I fall in love with a man which i know for over 8 years. There are many ups and down. We fought many , and many left hanging. He hurt me many times but i guess god brought him to me again one day, i accept such fate and love him with all my heart



Marriage was fine for all year thou i know his well kept secret. Like everyone say, its hard to change sumone. I know his out there with other girls but i kept quite. I didnt know what to do but i kow i was strong enough to take care of myself. But one day he came back with a his child and not mine. In the name of god, i took care of his child without questioning why.



I FELT STUPID, WHY AM I STILL STANDING STRONG FOR HIM, SUMONE WHO HARLDLY KNOW I EXIST.



After awhile, he file a divorce case on me. I wasnt suprise as i had already know that i will never get his heart. It was stupidity to let him take advantage of my loyalty.



To cut my dream short, on the last day of our court case, i didnt turn up. In fact i left a recorded tape for him and all to witness. I still remember what i exactly say, i had tears when i woke up



'' Dear Husband

Today will be the last day of us. My pleasure to have you as my husband. In the name of god, i love you faithfully. In the presence of everyone in this court room, judges and all, ive always fall for you since 15 years ago. I dont know how much you love me, but today you have prove your love. Thank you for letting me go. For all this years ive tried my best to be your wife your girl,but my best isint the very best you expect. Dear husband, u can have what ever thing we share,iam moving on without you.Whenu wake up tommor0 always pray for my strenght for iam getting back my life that was left 15 years ago. Dear husband, my name is Ross a wife that never fail to love you and your child.''

I cried in the bus, Work is killing me.Iam already working like an a project manager cum sales cum operation cum consultant. I dont know how to tell bos that i cant do all this. I anit octopus. The Student market is already taking 80 percent of my job yet she throw me a proposal on monday and expect me to finish a brief one on thurs ,which is tommoro.This aint easy as its reseacrh base.Cumming up i have to prepare slides for the school sales then so on.

God , ive been thru alot this end year, please bless me with more strenght. Alhamdullillah i manage to overcome the earlier even thou my heart havent forgive. Surrounding stop me from moving and seeing the future that ive always been wanting to achive. God, why must i face problem one after another especially went i feel really small? Iam not kidding heare, forget abou giving me difficulties i seriously need power n strenght. God i aint kiding ya

Dear

I he dont think HE ever read my blog, but if he does, he'll be laughing on how silly i am.

I thought i could spent my fasting month with him,i taught i could bake for him a cake. I thought u'll be here to give me strenght and courage , but that was just my thoughts.

I guess in this world there must be sumone that has to suffer. Thats just how life goes.

Roslin,

you got to promise to urself that u will not let any of this happen again.It doesnt matter if you fall, u have to get up and be strong.And if you feel like crying, cry all you want, but when its time to stop, move on, dont give up. No one is your strenght, it comes within yourself. NEVER EVER GIVE UP ROSLIN, YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU'LL MAKE IT. IGNORE SITUATION THAT MAKE YOU CRY OR DISCOURAGE YOU, THEY ARE JUST KILLING YOU INSIDE. LIVE WITH WHAT YOU GOT NOW. GOD HAS PLANS FOR YOU. WHAT EVER HAPPEN HAS A GOOD REASON TO ALL, ITS THE BEST FOR YOU..

ROSLIN, YOUVE BEEN THRU THIS A COUPLE OF TIMES, THIS IS JUST ANOTHER TEST. TAKE THIS AS A CHALLANGE. YOU FAIL NOT BECAUSE YOUR A FAILURE, BUT JUST BECAUSE GOD KNOWS WHAT BEST FOR YOU.

YOU CARE FOR HIM SO MUCH AN ALWAYS PUT HIS FEELINGS BEFORE YOURS, BUT HE DOESNT REALLY CARE, THEN WHY SHOULD YOU ROSLIN. Furthermore you dont deserve him, he is using you as a place to spent his boredom. dont let it be this way.