I heard so much about fall marriage and iam officially afraid of marriage at such a young age. I dream about my ''marriage life'' yesterday. Its not a happy one.



I fall in love with a man which i know for over 8 years. There are many ups and down. We fought many , and many left hanging. He hurt me many times but i guess god brought him to me again one day, i accept such fate and love him with all my heart



Marriage was fine for all year thou i know his well kept secret. Like everyone say, its hard to change sumone. I know his out there with other girls but i kept quite. I didnt know what to do but i kow i was strong enough to take care of myself. But one day he came back with a his child and not mine. In the name of god, i took care of his child without questioning why.



I FELT STUPID, WHY AM I STILL STANDING STRONG FOR HIM, SUMONE WHO HARLDLY KNOW I EXIST.



After awhile, he file a divorce case on me. I wasnt suprise as i had already know that i will never get his heart. It was stupidity to let him take advantage of my loyalty.



To cut my dream short, on the last day of our court case, i didnt turn up. In fact i left a recorded tape for him and all to witness. I still remember what i exactly say, i had tears when i woke up



'' Dear Husband

Today will be the last day of us. My pleasure to have you as my husband. In the name of god, i love you faithfully. In the presence of everyone in this court room, judges and all, ive always fall for you since 15 years ago. I dont know how much you love me, but today you have prove your love. Thank you for letting me go. For all this years ive tried my best to be your wife your girl,but my best isint the very best you expect. Dear husband, u can have what ever thing we share,iam moving on without you.Whenu wake up tommor0 always pray for my strenght for iam getting back my life that was left 15 years ago. Dear husband, my name is Ross a wife that never fail to love you and your child.''