I really gona cry sooner or later. I dont know who to share my stress with. Is like my daily life surrounds by work and strangers.I dont laugh much anymore. Its always me and myself. I hardly speak a word and only say when theres sumthing to be said.I miss liyana my lunch buddy and the only time that i can be myself. I can tell stories, listen to her stories and etc etc. I really feel lonely now but lonliness cant be seen as myself is too busy with work.



Iam sitting in a cubical and thats aint helping me. Ok iam crying now. Iam not that strong you know theres always one point that i will breakdown in my own space.I dont noe what happen to me. Work suppose to occupy my life and make me happy like before. I guess i miss company and companion. God really testing me inside. He bless me with stress and take away sumtink that i treasure.

To liyana, i really need to see you after ramadan. You have no idea how bored to death and stress iam ..

To Ayuni and CT we will go break fast together, been realli stress at work and i tink i need a break. If there is one think i can do, i want to go to sumwhere that i can shot out my feelings.

But one thing for sure ive learn to appreciate life, being more generous, open mind and be able to accpt fate with a smile.

Isit me, that its been hard for me 4 years continueously. First was D then H then F then R. What the hell is going with my life. What wrog have i done ??


Dear god, i know your are blessing me with strenght and i appreciate that.Naturally i am very weak inside,and i guess as time pass by there are many that ive improve to grew the strenght that i lack of. Dear god, i hope there is sumtink good awaiting for me at the end of this journey. Behind this streght ive been trying too much. Sumtimes i had to force the tears out as i really need to cry out .Dear god, bless me,